Second, third, fourth chances..

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Support your loved ones when they need you most. They might not always tell you when that is, but always be ready to lend a helping hand. People grow and change through their life. It doesn’t mean they’re “fake” or a bad person. It means they’re human. Give them a break. Everyone makes bad choices but how they choose to fix the mistakes and rebuild the broken pieces says a lot more about them than the mistake itself.

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If someone regrets something they have done to you and they want to fix it… Let them. Why hold it against them and make them feel even worse about the situation? Let them go above and beyond to fix the mistake and make sure it doesn’t happen again.

Sure, not everyone wants to fix certain “mistakes” but, for those who do..why stop them? Allow them to change and recognize their mistakes. Allow them to grow into a better person. Allow them a second…third…fourth chance. Sometimes you need a few tries to get it right.

Something my dad told me a few years ago that really stuck with me, “some people spin their wheels longer than others before getting on track.”

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Everyone experiences hard times..depression…anxiety…isolation. It doesn’t mean you are broken or messed up in any way. You’re human. You might just feel lost and alone. I’m sure you’ve felt like that at some moment in your life…

My point is, it helps when you have positive people in your life to lift you up. Positive people can help you out of the darkest times. You start to realize you’re not alone and these people around you just want you to succeed and be the absolute best YOU possible.

Be that person to your loved ones. Be there for your friends and family. Even when they seem to be receding and isolating themselves from others, that’s usually the time they’ll need you most.

Life is tough enough as it is; make it easier on yourself, and others, and be the positivity they need. Give them that extra nudge they need to get out of their comfort zone. That’s where the magic happens anyway.

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Fresh snow

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“The Eskimos had fifty-two names for snow because it was important to them: there ought to be as many for love.” -Margaret Atwood.

Snow is peaceful. It falls so silently and surprises us when we wake. It blankets the cold ground, hiding the dead leaves.. giving us the perception of a clean slate. A new beginning. Quite fitting since this is the beginning of a new year.

I hope everyone had a safe and exciting New Year’s Eve. Get excited for 2014. Be bold, and love fiercely. Work hard and reward yourself when you reach goals. Create awesome things and do what makes you happy.

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Life changes

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2013 has been a pretty awesome year to me (something I just now realized).
– I’ve finally found a major I LOVE.
– I made the Dean’s List twice
– I went to Paris and Amsterdam with my good friend Ali
– My family got a beach house in NC. & I cannot wait to make more memories there with them.
– I had my own apartment and discovered the highs and lows of living by yourself.
– I experienced awesome classes and made some great new friends
– I adopted a dog… Even if it only lasted a couple weeks. (He’s with a better family now)

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Just like every other person at the beginnings of every new year I have those same generic “resolutions”. Yet we hardly ever keep them..right?

My first resolution is to hold myself more accountable. I’m going to make a more conscious effort to write things down. Once a day just make notes of things that made me happy or sad. Things that made me really think.

From now on, no matter what year it is I want to focus more on three things. Health. Love. & Growth.

Health:
I can tell I need a change because I’ve been learning to listen to my body. I need to be healthier. I want to go on hundreds of more adventures and I want to be as healthy as I possible so I can really enjoy them. I’m not going on a diet or committing myself to a gym. It’s more of a lifestyle change. Just to be healthier in all aspects.
And another reason I’m even writing this on here for you all to see is because it’s just another way to hold myself accountable. A place to remind myself of my own promises.

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Love:
I really truly want to work harder to be a better friend. All of my close friends know I’m HORRIBLE with keeping in touch. I try, but I get busy and then forget and days will go by. But I think my friends are the best because they know I still love and care about them. I’m not a friend who only talks to you when it’s convenient for me. I really do want to see my friends more often. I want to build stronger relationships with those close friends I have. I also want to make more friends down at school. I have them, but I’m usually too busy to even see them outside of class. I mean I’ll go days without really interacting with people outside of class and work. I just have too much to do. But I really don’t want to be like that anymore. I need to make time.

Growth:
I want to learn more about the world around me. About other countries and religions. About my major and what kind of job I would really love to have when I graduate. I want to be a better daughter, friend, and more importantly a better sister. I want to grow my business more (even though there’s only so much I can do because I’m still in school and have another job). I need to learn to be better at saving money. But I also I want to save more memories.
My main goal for this year is to hold myself accountable and be my own advocate. I think once I can do that, then I’ll truly begin to succeed.

Also, thank you. Thank you, each and every one of you who take the time to read these posts. They’re usually pretty long so please know I appreciate it. :)

Have a safe and happy new year.

Much much love,
-E

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Education Blocks creativity

Education Blocks creativity

I watched a video recently that really struck a chord with me.
It was a Ted Talk video of Ken Robinson about “How schools kill creativity”… it’s so good.

When I was in school my add blocked anything that would allow me to concentrate and usually retain any information. It made me focus on my creativity instead. Which of course, isn’t the same as history class or chemistry, so I got bad grades. Those bad grades in turn made me feel like crap about myself. Thinking that there was something wrong because why can’t I understand the information!! I mean geesh, I study as much as the other kids. I take just as many, if not more, notes as them. WHAT am I doing wrong. Why can’t I get it. I wanted to understand it. I wanted to retain information like the other students. But I couldn’t.

However, I could draw. Infact, I could draw, paint, and crochet. I could make art (even if others don’t see it as such). I could make things with my hands. I could make things for OTHER people. And I LOVED it.

I tried all through middle school and high school to get good grades. Of course, like most students, there were times I could be studying more than I was. But I tried. I tried to concentrate better. I tried to be excited to learn about a war that happened on this date in this year between these countries over this issue. I tried to LOVE science class. I really did. I tried to be EXCITED about pre-calculous. But I just wasn’t. All I wanted to do was create.

I really started to hate school because I started thinking it was just showing how horrible I was at certain subjects. Like Ken said in the video, everywhere in the world there’s a heirarchy in schools. “At the top are Mathematics and Languages, then the Humanities, and at the bottom are the Arts. There isn’t a education system in this planet that teaches dance every day to children the way they teach Math. Why?”

And then he says this, “Truthfully, what happens is that when children start to grow up, we start to educate them from the waist up, ad then we focus on their heads… and slightly to one side.” Why not educate everything. Why not focus on the whole body and mind rather than particular, meticulous ideas that only some kids will really understand and absorb?

I just hated school. I thought I wasn’t as smart as the other students. I then really started to compare myself to my sister. I thought she was a genius (& she still is). I wanted so badly to be able to proudly bring home those A’s and B’s like she did. Or.. in my brothers case… the report cards with only A’s. I wanted to make my parents proud. I wanted to show they didn’t waste their money on private schools and tutoring and ADD/ADHD medicine. It made me feel like crap. In fact, it made me feel like crap until May of this year.

I got on the dean’s list for the first time ever in the spring of 2013. My final grades… for the first time EVER by the way… were all A’s and B’s. Yes. I had NEVER before gotten all A’s and B’s on a report card from elementary school to college. I finally switched (in my second semester of junior year!) to a major geared toward my talents. A major I love. Classes I get and projects I’m excited about. The switch to graphic design was the best decision I’ve ever made… even if it’s a few semesters late.

One day when I have kids of my own, I hope to be able to figure out how they learn best. What excites them most and motivates them. That way, when they’re in school I can help them find ways to learn as much as they can and do what makes them happiest.

Thank you mom and dad for all you’ve done for us. & thanks for never giving up on me in school even when I did.

-Love, E

p.s. this semester also resulted in all A’s and B’s & the dean’s list again. ahhh I’m so excited about this.

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell… BOOTIES!

So so so excited for the holidays. It truly is the BEST time of year. At least in my opinion ;)

I’m so thankful this year for being able to spend thanksgiving break with my family and Ali at our house in NC. Even though it’s not tanning weather and it’s been raining every day, it’s still so gorgeous.

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I’ve been keeping busy with all of your orders though! My favorite order right now hands down are these adorable booties with a matching hat. Instead of using buttons on the side of the booties, I got a little festive and put some little jingle bells on them! Ahh, so adorable!

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And since Ali is here with us, I can use his fancy DSLR’s to take some nicer photos of my items before posting them to the shop.

 

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Wishing you all safe travels and a happy Thanksgiving.

Love,
-E

New Items on Etsy

I finally figured out how to ship my crocheted items so guess what?! My Etsy shop is now open for business! Go and order some scarves for your friends & family for the holidays! Or, if you or someone you know is having a little baby, maybe you should check out my baby items in the store. They are so cozy and cuddly, I’ve gotten nothing but great reviews from all of my customers.

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How cute is little Kora in my newborn bear hat?

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I am LOVING this colder weather because it’s just another excuse for me to bundle up in some new items. Go check them out and order some for yourself!! Treat yo self!

Work hard, play…hardly at all?

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Working 8-12 hours a day sometimes on top of classes, projects, trying to have a social life (and failing), and trying to maintain this blog & my business… I don’t know how some people do it. It definitely keeps me busy. Probably why I have such a hard time maintaining a social life (I sometimes wish I would make that more of a priority).

For example, this week at work (I set up lighting and sound equipment for any event on campus) we have been doing rehearsals for one of the fall dance shows and this weekend are the performances. It’s eating up a lot of my time. Time that I could spend working on homework or my business or just catching up with some friends. But I’m not complaining. I love my job. I like the people I work with and it’s probably one of the best jobs offered on campus in my opinion. It’s just exhausting (especially with exams and final projects around the corner).

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For me though, exhausting is good. Being tired is GREAT (hey, it helps me fall asleep easier at night). Feeling busy all the time is something that I love. Feeling like I got stuff done during the day and actually accomplished something is awesome.

I want to be able to say that I actually maintained a job through college and started my own business as well. I don’t know many students or friends of mine who even have jobs as they’re currently going through college. And I don’t know how they do it. I mean, what the heck do you do with that free time?

I’ve had a job since I was 13, babysitting for neighbors. Then at 16 I was a lifeguard and have had numerous other jobs since then. I didn’t want to have a job at first but I thank God for my parents forcing me and my sister to get jobs early. It helped us develop awesome work ethic. When I was a freshman in college I didn’t have a job, and I had NO IDEA what to do with my time. I just had to find one my sophomore year.

That being said, no matter how overwhelmed I get sometimes, I cannot imagine not having a job right now. Yeah, I’d like to spend more time with friends and actually act like a college student sometimes. But I can’t just sit around and shoot the breeze when I have so much going on. I have thought recently about quitting just because I’m getting a little stressed out. But I just need to find ways to better manage my time. Just like my dad always tells me about himself, I too work best when I have a lot going on. If I have too much free time, NOTHING gets done. Except maybe a bowl of popcorn and access to unlimited amounts of shows through hulu plus. Haha.

Have a great, productive, relaxing, lazy, exciting, busy (whatever it is that you NEED) weekend everyone.

-E